A new journey

it hasnt been long since my father has left me and my stepmom but it seems like a lifetime i miss him so much! it hasnt really hit me yet that he is gone it seems like he is on the road and he will be back soon from a trip. even though we got his ashes last week it still seems like he is here...i feel bad i want to break down and cry but i cant bring myself to its not that i dont care i love him more than anything and i miss him like crazy i guess its just not my time to let it out! sometime i sit and thing that he is still here and i talk to him as if he was right next to me...i have had everyone tell me im so sorry and i just dont want to hear that i want my daddy back...i appriciate everything everyone has done for me but my life will never be the same without him and i have to realize that...my stepmom found pics of me and my dad when i was real little and i cried when i saw them the good ol' days i have been and always will be daddys little girl no matter what its just really hard to believe he is gone forever and i will never have him with me again until its my time to go...but i kno he will be waiting for me one day. im glad that he is not in pain anymore but i cant wait to see him again...i just want to wish him a safe journey and its not goodbye i will see u when its my time...I LOVE U DADDY MORE THAN U WILL EVER KNO!!! HAVE A SAFE JOURNEY!!! i will never forget u!!! love always kamalynn