a good day

today is a good day for my father, he is on his computer listening to music. his balance is getting a little worse each week but he is managing. he is upbeat for the most part which makes me happy, we talk and i spend a lot of time with him. i am even staying close to him when i move into my new apartment im only gonna be a hop skip and a jump away. i am really happy that he is doing better today, on these days i feel like i have my old father back we sit and talk, joke around and just have as much fun as he can handle. he is coming around to the idea that in just a few short weeks he will be a grandfather also, sometimes he rubs my belly to try and feel her kick. i cant wait to see the look on his face the first time he sees and holds his grandaughter. well thats all for today...

just getting by

today is one of his bad days, these are the days that are really hard for me to see him. he has been sleeping quite a bit lately. its hard to keep the tears back when i talk to him today i wish that this would just go away but i know it wont, and i have to deal with it. it helps that i have my stepmother to talk to about it but it also takes quite a bit out of me to talk about my father. he has always been my shoulder to cry on and the person that i run to when i need help. i still think of him in that sense but now he needs me to help sometimes, its a small price to pay for all that he has done for me. i love him more than anything and nothing will ever change that.

When I First Found Out

Hi my name is Kama and my father has lung cancer. i was devistated when i found out. he has been doing alright for the most part, he has been battleing this for about a year and a half almost 2 years. im glad he is still with us, everyday that i have with him is a blessing. my father and i have always been close no matter what we have always been there for each other. i love him dearly and i dont know what i am going to do without him, he is my everything. it is very hard to be strong when i am around him sometimes, i do the best i can. its true what everyone says you never know what you have until its gone.