just getting by

today is one of his bad days, these are the days that are really hard for me to see him. he has been sleeping quite a bit lately. its hard to keep the tears back when i talk to him today i wish that this would just go away but i know it wont, and i have to deal with it. it helps that i have my stepmother to talk to about it but it also takes quite a bit out of me to talk about my father. he has always been my shoulder to cry on and the person that i run to when i need help. i still think of him in that sense but now he needs me to help sometimes, its a small price to pay for all that he has done for me. i love him more than anything and nothing will ever change that.